Life is such a magical experience! Just breathing in the fresh air restores the burnt wounds on your soul. It feel that no matter how much I endure the torment of hell, the knowledge of life always lifts me up.
Sasha, I’m in grave danger to myself. Every night I prayer and hope my soul leaves this earth but of the pain I’ve caused. Sometimes I push the limits of chemistry just to see how much I can take before death consumes me. I have so much to give, so much to share, and I have dependants who needs my support. I should be happy but deep inside I want to die. You should see the sadness on my face when I wake to sunlight. I weep inside because my soul is here to endure more pain that I cause to others. Sasha, I wish you were here, because I know that you would grant my wishes.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.