I fail to understand why is there so much hope for me although I cannot see it. Should I have joy? Should I rejoice for being spared? What is it with the chains of life throwing me off balance? So many questions without answers. I thought I would feel better writing to you, but I feel more hollow than I did previously. I want to commit, I want the best responsible, I want to reach for hope but all I see is darkness.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.