I always contemplate the value of my decision especially when you’re not included. I feel that at this point I’m impulsive, indecisive, and lack courage. I think most of this stems from my relations with others who carries the same emotions. Over the past year I have lowered my standard while complying with the perception of others. This may be something that only you can help my with because I am weak. I tried so many times to take my life and failed. To be honest, I just want to heal.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.