I had a vision that I would cross such a difficult path. You warned me once about giving in to my weaknesses and giving permission to others to kill my spirit. For some odd reason I’ve been broken, heart trampled on just to pursue love. I thought our love was shatter proof, I was wrong. Look upon me as drown myself in poison. I have turned my back to your teaching, spat on the words wisdom, closed my mind from the comforts of death. As you said before, I need to be free of my deeds and cleansed of the blood I’ve shed. I need someone to end this excuse of a life, so I can become one with you. I’ve drank from the poisonous cup, wiped my lips of the venomous tea, but death escaped my grasp. I need to rest in peace! Please let me rest.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.