I’m turning into the man I hate and it’s unsettling how it impacts my lifestyle. I’m concerned that I will do harm to others especially the ones I hold dear. Is it rage that I feel? Do I feel some kind of resentment towards those I love? I’m in a world with more questions than answers. Sasha, I know that you have taught me better than this. You warned me about the consequences of giving in and I just looked away. I’m grateful that you have spared your wrath upon me so that I can drink the poison tea. Last night I bowed for forgiveness, begged for it, but my words fell upon deaf ears. I have ruined a power relationship that could’ve improved my life. Tonight, I must surrender to darkness so the demons can drink from my lifeless body.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.