I write to you because I’m scared. I’m afraid of what comes after death and what impact it will have on this life. I sometimes imagine a world beyond our understanding that makes this life more meaningful. Sasha I can’t live my life causing pain to other, it’s not in my character. I know deep inside there some good, some potential, but all my fears have scared it away. I ask about my identity daily and have resorted to isolation. I have failed you. Every time I look at my reflection I know for a fact that my ls living proof of failure. Sasha, I want to make sure that I don’t wake from this eternal slummer so that I don’t harm anyone else again. This Christmas I will give the ultimate gift of salvation.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.