The night felt so cold and dark as I comb through the memories of my past. I’m trying so hard to cope with the emotions of lost but some how it has influenced so questionable habits in my life. I do remember years ago you’ve taught me how to fight my subconscious, become mentally independent. I think over the year I’ve let others influence my action while burning my heart and soul. Who am I to blame? who can I blame? it’s so much easier to blame others than to look in the mirror. Sometimes my reflection haunts me, releasing those memories of my father. Sasha, to be honest i want to burn every memory of my past because it has tainted my soul. I’ve grown a dark heart that’s plagued with evil and vengeance. All I want to do it hurt others, manipulate them, bend them to my cause so that I can feel free. On the outside it appears the I have mastered full control but deep inside there’s a violent storm. I can hear the voices of hell calling my name…
Pray for me
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.