I saw someone today who looked exactly as I desire my appearance to be. I wonder how she made such a bold step for change and why is it so hard for me. Is it because I’m older? Maybe I just wasted alot of time contemplating things. I tend to procrastinate alot which has gotten me in a series of troubles. I like to blame anyone except myself because deep inside my soul I’m a damn coward. I’m about to inherit a sum of money, should I self medicate? I would love to see a doctor but time is of the essence here! And my time seems to be running out. Listen, I’m aware that you’ve told me about this roadblock multiple times, I wasn’t listening as usual. I feel like I’ve given up some how.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.