No More Wallstreet

Dear Sasha,

Last night upon leaving my apartment two guys in dark black suits approached me holding what appeared to be small notepad like the ones law enforcement usually carries. I was stunned because I didn’t know why these two men would want to question me since I’ve down nothing wrong. I taught maybe they were debt collectors trying to scare me into paying my debts immediately. I would like to give you a description of their faces but right now I can’t really remember their features. It’s all a blur to me. Anyway, they asked me a question, Do I want money or power? I didn’t really know how to respond since as of now my finances are drowning me.

I’ve always chased to form somewhat of a stable life. I would either take on additional jobs or make risky adjustments just to try keeping things under control. My goal has always been to be as helpful and caring as possible even if it means taking a couple risk here and there. The constant thing that’s been on my mind is how to make more money. That’s all I wanted is to make more of it so that I can bring about happiness. Well, with these few years passing you know how it all turned out. It’s like a train with no track left to follow.

Power. As a child, I’ve learned that knowledge is power and I don’t mean just the once you find in books. Just simply knowing more information, more strategies, being able to harness talents from without just but consuming information is powerful. You can fix lives, destroy lives, make lives just but know how. A lot of people have told me over the years that you can’t make move without making any money. You have to work, build a retirement fund, maybe invest in a few things before you’re 65 and before you know it, you’ll retire a millionaire. That’s what they teach you in schools too, did you know that Sasha? Financial stability by chasing the rabbit.

I thought about it for a few minutes but it was clear on what I have to choose. After recent events, I found that there’s no such thing as a happy ending. Everyone will always have an opinion about you even the once you hold dear. For me, it was an eye-opener. I’ve obtained the knowledge from both sides of the river in order to make my decision. Sometimes I’m not a step ahead but at least I catch up quickly. I’ve learned that chaos sometimes brings a new order. Sasha, know that I’m not what they’re making me out to be.

I choose power. As of now, money will do me no good. They nod and said “You know what you have to do then. Chaos will bring about a new order in your situation.”

I watched as they walked back into the dark and knew immediately what had to be done. I’ve contemplated for awhile but did not have the courage to pursue. In order to change the course of time, I must create the storm.




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For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.

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