Freedom is all I want. I want to be free of the pain and anxiety that plagues my routines. I want to be fearless to where I can address adversity without hesitation. Sasha is that something you can help me with? I know how much you hate my poor decisions and procrastination. I can change right now for you if there’s a possibility that you can help me. I can’t see a doctor, you know that. As I said before about the medication, it’ll mess me up. You know how I get at nightfall when the house grows quiet as the darkness surrounds me. You’ve seen the demons who walk about my room praying the I fall by my own hand. Sasha, I feel like I’m spending most of my time writing you letters of complaints rather than being genuinely concerned about your well-being. For this I am sorry.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.