What happened to my ambition? It’s like I’ve fallen into this routine of laziness. I don’t do enough to obtain the desires I want. I all do is make excuses which result in me falling for my foolish behavior. I can’t think of the last time I accomplished something significant. All I do is pray for the mercy of death instead of finding a reason to live. I feel that you may be tired of my bipolar emotion. you may want me to shut up and just get it over with rather than just whining about it to you. I really don’t see how you put up with me honestly.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.