I Hate You!


Dear Sasha,

Hello, I bet you don’t know who I am. I’m your worst nightmare or was years ago. Where are you? I haven’t seen you in awhile and I’m just wondering what you have been up to all these years. I see that many people have been writing letters to you and posting them online. I wanted to do the same just so that you can that I’m definitely alive. Have you heard from Jonathon? I bet you don’t even remember what he looks like. How many years has it been, 10? 12? Someone told me that you were in another world or some shit like that I clearly thought that they meant hell because that’s what you deserve. I should’ve killed you when I had to chance to be honest. I hate you! I hate everything about you and the thought of you stilling living just burns me up. I want to visit you hiding place and kill you over and over again. I bet you don’t know who I am; you don’t have a fucking clue.

Anyway, I’m married now. I’m living the life of my dream. My husband is super hot and my family loves me. You told me once that I would never be happy because I didn’t graduate high school but look at me now! I’m living a life that’s glamorous and filled with riches. Where are you? I bet you’re living in rags on the streets somewhere. Someone told me that you were in New York trying to get a train home. How pathetic! All I have to do is make a call and I’ll be wherever I want to be. You always bragged about your college degrees, your ‘fancy’ accomplishment, and look at you now? Just so pitiful! Like wreck moving through life like a damn zombie.

You know what’s the word on the street? You’re dead. Are people really writing to a dead girl? Who’s responding to them? What a fucking joke! I can’t believe you sucked these people into preserve your memory when you made a difference in anyone life. So what that you gave these little advices, my mom can do that. Someone told me that you drove a man complete crazy in Texas. He’s writing you every day and willing to die for you! Who dies for someone who’s already dead? I just can’t believe the fantasy you have place in the minds of the people who loved you. You’re making them worship you which is just plain wrong.



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For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.

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