I’m writing this letter to you because I’m lonely. I’m not sure if you’re real or not but I really want to confide in someone. You see, 5 years ago my boyfriend left me for his gay lover of 12 years. I was blindsided by his secret life when I caught him on a live stream application kissing his lover at some bar. Sorry, I’m a little vague with all the detail because I fear that he may find this and figure out it’s me. Yes see, I wanted him to be happy so I told him that it didn’t hurt. I lied to him. I told him that the evolution of love is to want happiness for your partner, even if that means your partner is with someone else. Total bullshit. I’m not a college grad nor did I complete high school, but I know that I’m not that stupid to believe the words coming out of my mouth. I guess I want to tell you that I’m hurting so bad. It’s like my heart has been ripped out of me and I’m left with this empty hole. I want to just kill him for hurting me like this. I want him back Sasha.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.