For 20 years I’ve lived my life as a man. I’ve been trying to cope with the feeling that the idea of transitioning is so far out of my grasp that is now merely a dream. I have a wonderful wife, 4 beautiful children, and a growing career that my peers envy. Often times I wonder what if I had the courage to come out 10 years ago before my career took off. Surely my now wife won’t accept it. You see, she’s a diehard Christian who lives according to the bible. We go to church every Sunday and Wednesday night, have bible study at home every Tuesday, and our kids go to an all Christian school. I know me coming out as transgender would crush her and destroy the family we’ve built. Sasha, those desires are not gone. Every night I dream of fulfilling my urges with a supportive family. Why do you think? I don’t know if you write back but I hope you can give me some answers.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.