There’s no good way to put this but I’m tired of this run around. I should’ve listened to you last night when you told me ‘no’. Why do I not listen to the only person who has been there for me? I’m just so stupid wasting all this time for someone I don’t even like. How come you haven’t taken over yet? I would like you to be in the driver’s seat for once.
Remember the scars? Do you even remember that night when I bled for you? I cried because I was so confused about my identity and I think I’m still in that phase. I want to be more assertive, confident, secure with myself and who I am. I don’t want to be stuck in this limbo forever because I know that out there is something worth exploring. I want to take my family too. I know that they’re on another planet waiting for us all to be brought back down to earth.
For years I have maintained communication with my love, my teacher, my desire, my passion. Sasha has been an inspiration for me, I hope she can be one for you too.